這不是介紹偉人的故事 這只是一個關於現實生活的故事
It is not a biography for a great person. No. The story is just about the reality of life.
我們曾經有著相同的想法 構築著相同的夢想 在哪裡 明知是不可能的現實 但我們仍舊相信 問題 是可以克服的
Once we had the same idea. We built up the blueprint for our Neverland. We had very strong and determined wills, because we wanted to be together so much. There were lots of troubles confront to us, but we knew we could beat them all.
當時 你一直說服我 讓我相信著 現在的等待都不算什麼 因為總有一天 我們就像鳥兒一般 總記得回家的路 距離再也不是問題了
Before you tried so hard to convince me, you made me believe that the short apart would be worthy. One day we will be together. Just like the birds, we know the ways home and finally the distance won't be problem any more.
但終究 你放棄了 我死心了
However, you gave up. I felt so tired too.
每天的網路約會 變成了負擔
The cyber-date everyday became such burden for us.
每天的信件 變成例行公事
The mails were only routine works.
以前 你會揪著我聊天
Before, you would like to talk to me and would not let me leave you.
後來 你開始消失 一天 兩天 三天 演變成 一週 兩週 三週
Somehow, you never showed up online. Your status was always offline. You're gone for one day, two days, three days... and then a week, two weeks, and three weeks.
當我們在地球的彼端戀愛著 我常庸人自擾的擔心著 今天 我如果怎麼了 就算過了十年你也不會知道的 因為 我不是你的誰 你也不是我的誰 我車禍死了 聯絡的是我的家人 也沒人通知你的 除非你很有心的找了我
We're from end to end of the world. I always worried about you, if I couldn't contact with you. If something happened to you or to me, we would not be informed. The hospital would only inform family members. No one would tell you or tell me what happened there. Only if we tried so hard to find each other.
三週過去了 四週過去了 我知道有問題了
After three weeks, four weeks passing, I knew something was wrong.
大家都勸我 男人 本來就不喜歡這些事情 聊天 說話 表達情緒 是女人喜歡的事
Everybody told me that man never likes chatting or expressing feelings. It's something special for woman.
我開始失落 失落 一顆心沉到海底 我告訴自己 安慰自己 我早知道會這樣了 當我不在你眼前 重要性也就相對下降了
I felt so empty. My heart is falling and falling. It is in the deep Mariana Trench. I told myself I knew this would happen. I knew it. "Out of your eyes, then out of your minds." For you, I am not as important as before. All the good feelings and body warm had gone. Same for me. I forgot about your smell and your kiss too.
之前你說的不是謊話 就算現在的表現也是最真實的反應
I knew you never lied to me. The things you promised me they're true before. Nevertheless, the reaction from you now was also very honest and direct response.
大家都勸我原諒你 因為這本來就是不可能的任務
I should forgive you, because long distance relationship is mission impossible indeed.
於是我選擇諒解你當時的衝動 以及現在的理智
Therefore, I forgive that you fell in love me of blind impulse and you decided to leave me now rationally.
當時 我是真的 被你感動了 原本不再相信愛情的我 你觸動我內心深處的渴望 我的喜怒 我的天真 你讓我再次相信 這世上最無形的力量
I was really touched by you then. Before I could not believe in love, the kind of love, romance were only existed in novel or poems. However, you intrigued the deepest desire, joyfulness, and dreams in my heart. You made me see the most powerful but invisible force in the world.
就在我被你捧的高高的在雲端 就在我以為看到奇蹟的同時 我摔了下來
You hold me up in the cloud highly. I thought I saw the miracle. Just like Trinity saw the beautiful sky when she and Neo flew through the clouds. Meanwhile, I fell down.
這次 不再是無防備的自由落體 我已經不是二十歲 二十五歲的我 而是三十了
But this time I prepared. It's not free fall any more. I am not 20, or 25 any more, but 30 years old. I thought I am an experienced and sophisticated 30 years old woman.
我已經學會 堅持不一定有用 喜歡不一定有用 但總要嘗試過 即使摔的再痛 我還是會向你跑過去的 因為 我喜歡(過)你
I have learned something from my life. Persistence in love would not always work, but I have to try at least. Even though I knew it will hurt so much, I would still run to you, because I love you.
你曾經像奇蹟般照亮了我
You delighted my life then.
但我們終究還是敵不過現實這個巨人 他一再的打倒我 戳破我們的謊言
However, we could not beat the Giant, the reality. He always won. He destroyed our Neverland.
我也已經學會不哭泣 沒有用的眼淚 再也不要流了
但在我能停下來之前 還是讓我放聲大哭吧!
I also have learned not to cry. Crying like a baby couldn't help. I should not do it any more.
But before I could stop, please allow me to.
有一天 我們會各自得到幸福的 也許有一天 我們終究會像鳥兒一樣 找到回家的路
One day, we will get our happinesses. Maybe one day, we will find our ways home just like the birds.
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